Saturday, May 20, 2006
倦
疲倦，非常疲倦。可怕的是，原來疲倦的還不只我一人。在此地的時日越久，越能體會到在光輝燦爛的哈佛光圈底下有多少的壓力、焦慮與無法言喻的低落、迷惘。無法對他人言之甚或無法對自我坦然的現實。一個深陷其中後自己如何也說不清的現實。
大家都好累。大家都在默默地承受。
都在硬撐。
其實就說出來又如何呢？人生並不是永遠都要光鮮亮麗，got everything figured out。"If you're here tonight pretending to be the happy, cheerful, worry-less May-yi, to put on the fake smile and say, 'I'm doing well, thank you!", then you are not treating me as a friend. Those sentences are reserved for language textbook instruction. not for real life. So be real and share your mind with me," a friend once said that to me.
ほっとした。
都說出來吧。或許那會是讓下一分鐘好起來的開始。沒有人會嘲笑的。會嘲笑的人才是那位閉著眼睛過日子的人。眼睛閉上了，人生又有什麼好過的呢？
大家加油！
我又要去寫paper了。
梅ちゃん at 1:29:00 PM