Wednesday, October 04, 2006

All that Matters

Weather.

On a warm, sunny, beautiful day like today, I could literally sit here believing that I could stay for another full school year. Winter seems too far away to ever arrive, autumn comes as postcard-like images of red, yellow, and orange foliage, and time could easily jump ahead or fast forward to late-April days when one could at last toss the heavy winter coat away and breathe in the moist fresh air while stepping on freshly grown lawn in bare feet.

But all that is illusion. Once the rain comes and the temperature drops by 10 degrees, I'd again sit here thinking that the state of mind during the composition of this post is nothing but hallucinatory.

「覺得好不真實。還是我這禮拜念了太多的莊子?」

「沒關係,會越來越真實。」

Probably the most comforting words I've ever heard in a long time.

Sometimes when you dream high and far ahead yet reality takes you to the bottom pit of doubts, illusions, and hurtfulness, all you want to do is to stop dreaming, stop expecting, stop hoping. With great expectations there come great risks, and great risks great returns. But no one is to foresee the returns being the pleasant or the most afraid of. But what becomes of a man without dreams and hopes and aspirations?

所以失敗了,哭一場,或就在地上坐一下吧。然後爬起來再繼續。路已經鋪好了,差的只是不怕繼續行走的旅人。走下去才知道前方有何在等待。

我無法去研究那條路是從哪裡開始又會指向何方,但是我可以研究的是我要不要做那個繼續行走的路人。沒有人說我不可以就此不動,但我寧願邁開腳步大步向前。桃樂斯若不延著面前的黃色磚道前進,《綠野仙踪》就此會在我們的詞彙中消失。

會越來越真實吧,即使明天就開始下雨。

梅ちゃん at 2:49:00 AM

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at 10/4/06, 11:39 AM Blogger Chat Noir said...

i kinda want to see Wicked after reading this post....

 

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