Friday, November 10, 2006
改變嗎？
It took me 6 hours to get into NYC. With $15 ticket, what can you expect?I've learned to have zero expectation on American public transportation.
「27歲的我，人生是否該有些改變？」On the way to NYC, that was the question that kept looming over my head.
過去兩年的我，日子太沉靜了吧。一個人念書，一個人在校園裡走來走去，一個人坐著電梯又走過Widener D-level長長通到 Pusey Stacks的走道，一直走一直走直到抵達最後頭H的書架。有時候電梯坐著坐著突然會想：萬一電梯一打開不是圖書館，卻是 Dolphin Hotel 中伸手不見五指的漆黑走道時該怎麼辦？
On a second thought, perhaps it'd be better off to be in Dolphin Hotel then Widener's stacks room.
"This is good, but this is merely a limiting choice for you, May-yi," a friend told me. Limiting choice with limiting thoughts. 來到研究所的我不知不覺日子越活越單調，夢想越來越小，理想與熱情﹣不知為何﹣逐漸離我遠去。過去兩年過得安逸，卻也最不知道還有什麼值得去紀念的東西。
「27歲的我，人生是否該有些改變？」
為何只有提起包包，坐上半夜十一點半滿員車廂的地鐵時才有勇氣再次拾起夢想，提起勇氣，甚至是大口呼氣？
未來三天，就好好呼吸吧。做那個熟悉的自己。
有一天我要好好寫寫十七歲深秋去日本的那年。那個在京都的大街小巷一個人穿梭時重新找到自己的故事。自我的發掘就是從那時候開始的吧。
梅ちゃん at 5:08:00 PM